December 28, 2009 § 10 Comments
Tomorrow we fly to warm weather where Hans is waiting for us! I can’t wait to see him, we miss him sooooooo much. We’ll be celebrating the New Year with 2 of our best friends who just happen to be in the same Sunny Place for a short vaca from NY.
I am just about over my illness & can I just say: wow. This has been one hell of a nasty head cold. I managed to enjoy my time at home though- no problem indulging in yummy food & drinks! We went to a few big family/friend parties, I managed to get a good chunk of time in Boston & of course spend as much time as possible with Little Man’s 2 fairy godmommies. I love you both!
Little Man has been having an incredibly great time- the attention, the spoils, the nonstop looooooooooove by some very doting folks ;)
Even though we are going to be in the US for 2 more weeks, & my parents will be joining us in a few days, I am already feeling sad about leaving my little homestate. Walking around Boston made me so nostalgic; & the things I have always loved about it got to be too much.
One of my favorite moments was while I was sitting on a crowded T just before Christmas & suddenly a group of about 25 young people throughout the train started singing a beautiful hymn. Of course this doesn’t happen all the time & Bostonians are known for being a bit curmudgeonly, but it was nice. It was cold & snowy but there were plenty of bright blue skies which only made the city look more beautiful. & the smells, sounds & streets of Chinatown…sigh.
I was overwhelmed by that certain feeling of being someplace surrounded by people who have known me forever. At a particular gathering we went to on saturday I really felt it. Being in a room with folks who have loved me for years, who I miss, who are a part of some of my oldest memories. They indulged my little boy & showered him with such genuine affection I couldn’t help but feel incredibly blessed to have them in my life.
I struggle to reconcile these feelings every time I am here & it’s nothing new to Hans. I already feel sorry that he will have to deal with those first few days after my return to Holland of me being an emotional buzz kill…Coming off the high of being home, speaking & hearing English all of the time & that bit of feeling just a tad more me.
My home is where my boys are & god knows we have a good life, good friends & I love living in the EU, but there are always pangs of missing, missing, missing.